I’m feeling very alone tonight. It was another stress filled day with my dad. I know other people have dealt with these same things, but it feel very alone. Very isolated. I am just sitting and crying tonight.
My dad has decided it is a conspiracy at the nursing home to keep him there longer so they can make money on him. At least his stubbornness is making him get out of bed and get dressed (mostly) today. He even went outside for a little while (45 minutes). He told me he used the Baker Charm on the nurses today. I asked him if that meant he was bamboozling them? But he has to stay out of bed EVERY day for a few days. And it still took four tries with two people to get him out of bed today.
We have a Care Plan meeting on Monday. He thinks it is the “evil” head of therapy. I’m feeling guilty because I’m the one pushing this. But it is in his best interest. Had an hour long conversation with my pseudo brother today. He is going to try and talk to dad this weekend. He doesn’t think dad should go home at all. I don’t know that I agree with that, but I do know he isn’t ready yet.
I’m so tired. So weary. So low and scraping the ground. I feel so alone. No real support system here.
This blog will return to its regularly scheduled programming tomorrow. But for now I just don’t have it in me.