I’ve really been in a blue funk lately. Here’s just some of what’s been bothering me:
My daughter witnessed a brutal mugging/attack in her neighborhood. Now, I’m very proud of her for being the only (out of several) witness to call 911 and give a statement to the police. But, as a mom, I’m worried to death now. I wish she could afford to move to a safer neighborhood or out of Cleveland entirely. I feel like I’m always making up an excuse to be sure I hear from her every night. I hate worrying.
I was originally planning on going to see her and Soren tomorrow. But my car has been acting weird and I didn’t want to get stranded on the road, or worse in the ‘hood in Cleveland. I really miss them and want to see them in a bad way. Hopefully soon. The problem is that she is so busy with photo shoots and shows on weekends, that it is hard to find a day to go over.
Work has been busy. It’s budget time and that is never fun for a non-numbers person like me.
I’ve really been missing my mom lately. Nothing in particular, just everything. She drove me absolutely batty when she was alive and I did everything I could to avoid her many times. But I loved her and could always talk to her.
But, I’m determined to crawl out of this mood. The sun has been shining and it is hopefully starting to warm up a bit. I have tomorrow off and my plan is to try and get some exercise. Hopefully that will help. But then I just want to sit in the sun (if there is any, I heard rain was in the forecast by morning) and read. At a minimum, I hope to get my deck furniture all put out and washed off so I’m ready if it ever is nice enough.
I haven’t been very good at finding those things to be thankful for lately. But today I’m thankful I at least have the beginning of a plan to turn this around.