Tonight I’ve decided that I’ve been a Debbie Downer for far too long. Sure, I’m tired. Sure, I’m stressed. Sure, I’m ready for this to be behind me.
But, it could be a lot worse. I could be making funeral arrangements instead of nursing home/Medicaid arrangements.
What I want to talk about tonight though are all the things I appreciate most now that I don’t have them.
1. Being able to put on my pajamas in the evenings when I know I’m in for the night. And you men won’t understand this but I’m sure the women will. I appreciate being able to take off my bra. Instead I’m still in my work clothes until after 10:00 pm
2. Having my electronic devices near me and able to charge conveniently. Instead I have to crawl over the back of the couch to find a plug every night.
3. Being able to shut the curtains to shut out the morning light. I’m sleeping on the couch and it is in front of a large window with only sheer curtains.
4. Sleeping in past 6:15 just one morning. Of course it would be difficult with the light (see #3). I hate to complain about volunteers but the morning guy gets here at 6:30. Home health doesn’t arrive until 7:00 so there is no need for him to be here so early.
5. I’ve never professed to be a morning person. But I never really thought I was a grump in the morning either. I’ve found that I am. It’s because I usually have at least an hour before I have to talk to anybody. Now I’m lucky if I gave five minutes. But the good news is, I haven’t bitten anyone’s head off or injured anyone yet.
I’m hoping all of this will be behind me soon. I really don’t know how I will cope if we can’t get dad moved at the beginning of August. I guess my sister will have to actually spend some time here (don’t get me wrong, she is here about 45-60 minutes a day).