Fear (haiku)

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Cool but sunny

It is a bright sunny day here in northern Indiana – that always goes a long way to brightening my mood. I know we need rain (which is coming I think along with really high winds), but the sunshine makes me happier.

Not much of a blog post I know, but it is what is making me happy today.

 

Back at it

Back to work today. Normally I’m quite grateful for my standing desk. Not so much today. So I put my laptop down on my regular desk. Had trouble staying focused though. And I was on my feet too much and I paid the price tonight. 

But then I’m grateful that I am even able to whine! Tomorrow will be better…or not. 

Continuing Car Saga

I am so very thankful today because it has now been confirmed to me twice that the woman I hit is fine. 

First the ER nurse assured me she would be okay (even though I didn’t hear it from her, if you get my drift). But tonight my claims specialist called to confirm that the accident was my fault (as we already knew it was). Then she told me she couldn’t say any more but the other woman is physically fine. 

I’m so thankful. It has been weighing heavy on me. 

On a side note, the adjuster said he quit adding up repair costs when he got to $13,000 but could easily added another $6,000+. My car wasn’t worth that much new I don’t think. He again mentioned that he is amazed I walked away basically unharmed. I’m praising God for His protection. 

Now, to go car shopping. Ugh!

Best Friends

Today I want to express my deep and heartfelt gratitude to my friends. My inbox has been full of well wishes. My refrigerator is full of meals from friends wanting to help out. I’m overwhelmed by the phone calls, texts, emails from everyone. If I had any doubts that I have people who care about me before, I sure don’t now. I have the best friends. 

Grateful to be alive

It is exhausting just to get from one place to another. But I’m not complaining. I’m thrilled to have that option at all. 

I went to the tow truck lot today to empty my car. The interior is nearly pristeen except for all the exploded air bags. Here are pictures of my car I took today. I know I am in s small town, but this made the front page of the paper. I have heard from so many people wanting to know how I am. 

   
    
   

His Revenge by John W. Howell book launch

Announcing His Revenge by John W. Howell is now available in paper and ebook on Amazon.

The sequel to My GRL titled His Revenge is available and a new story continues where My GRL left off.

His Revenge is available in the US in Paper and Kindle editions

In Canada in Paper and Kindle editions

In the UK in Paper and Kindle editions

Here is the blurb:

America loves John Cannon, its newest hero, and the President wants to present him with the highest civilian medal for bravery for saving the Annapolis midshipman from a terrorist plot to destroy them. While in Washington for the award ceremony, John unwillingly becomes an accomplice in another plan by the same group to attack the credibility of the US President and the stability of the worldwide oil market. There is no way out as John either becomes a traitor to America or causes thousands of innocent people to die if he refuses.

The second John J Cannon Thriller moves from a barrier Island off the coast of Texas to Washington DC, then to Northern California, and finally to Ecuador. John is on the receiving end of an offer he cannot, refuse. His avowed enemy Matt Jacobs now wants John to help him shake the reputation of the US in the world political arena and disrupt confidence in the government at home. If John refuses, Matt plans to murder innocent Americans including John’s latest relationship. John’s only way out is to pretend to go along with the plan and hope for a miracle.

Excerpt from Chapter one

The water rushes over my head. I’m sinking and don’t know why. With my breath held, I have trouble stopping the air from escaping since the pressure drives the air up and out. I try to keep my mouth closed, but the water pressure pushes the air out more and more. Will I pass out? In the distance, the light is dim. To rise to the surface in time might not be possible─I need to breathe right now. Toward ending the pain in my chest, my rambling mind rationalizes taking a deep breath—even knowing it will end my life. In conflict with the irrational thought of ending it, my body won’t let me suck in the water, as it fights to retain the little bit of oxygen left to fuel my brain.

The despair is nearly overwhelming, and my mind considers other ways to battle the feeling. What more could I have done with my life? The pressure becomes more intense, and I’m about to lose it all, and I decide I’ve lived the way I wanted and have no regrets. I close my eyes and hear only the roar of the sea. I’m so tired. Exhausted. Sleep will fix everything, and I want to give in.

About the Author

John’s main interests are reading and writing. He turned to writing as a full-time occupation after an extensive career in business. John writes fictional short stories and novels as well as a blog at http://www.johnwhowell.com. John lives on a barrier island in the Gulf of Mexico off the coast of south Texas with his wife and spoiled rescue pets. He can be reached at his e-mail johnhowell.wave@gmail.com, Facebook https://www.facebook.com/john.howell.98229241or Twitter at @HowellWave

His first novel, My GRL is available on Amazon and wherever e-books are sold

 

 

Thankful beyond words

I was involved in a very serious car accident this morning. Involved isn’t quite right. I was at fault. 

It was a bright sunny day and I needed my sunglasses. They were on the passenger seat and I looked away to find them. When I looked up there was a car who had stopped (turning maybe?)

Driving about 50 mph and I slammed into the back of her van. Thank God for seatbelts and airbags. EMS, fire department and police were all dispatched. They told me I should not be walking away and should be dead. 

I’m more sore than you can imagine. Severe contusion from the seatbelt that saved my life. I’m purple in places I can’t even show off! Laceration on my right shin. And then a second trip to ER tonight because all of a sudden I couldn’t walk on my right foot and it was really swollen. I was afraid it was broken. Thankfully just a really bad sprain. 

Bottom line, I have had to cancel most of my week at work and rearrange some stuff. But so thankful I’m here to do it. I’m not an overly religious person. But I do believe in Jesus and know He was taking care of me and the lady I hit. He wasn’t ready for me yet. 

I’m pretty emotional tonight. Hug your loved ones tonight and tell them you love them. I’m thankful and overwhelmed by the support of my friends. And I know I have many who are praying for my complete recovery.

I may post a picture tomorrow of my car. I didn’t think to take a picture today. But I need to go empty it out. I’m hoping I can look at it without falling apart.